So I finally grab a little paper from my Reading Jar and came up with "Canadian Author", so I grabbed a Courtney Summers book from my shelf to read. Can't wait to see what I'll draw next.
Published: December 21, 2010Publisher: St. Martin's GriffinPages: 224Received: own a signed copyWhen Eddie Reeves’s father commits suicide her life is consumed by the nagging question of why? Why when he was a legendary photographer and a brilliant teacher? Why when he seemed to find inspiration in everything he saw? And, most important, why when he had a daughter who loved him more than anyone else in the world? When she meets Culler Evans, a former student of her father’s and a photographer himself, an instant and dangerous attraction begins. Culler seems to know more about her father than she does and could possibly hold the key to the mystery surrounding his death. But Eddie’s vulnerability has weakened her and Culler Evans is getting too close. Her need for the truth keeps her hanging on...but are some questions better left unanswered?
I'm torn inside. This book was emotionally charged and so dark at times. With a topic like suicide, you can't expect rainbows and sunshine, but the author still gives you little glimpses of hope and love via a background love triangle.
Friendship is pushed to it's limits. Family life is going dormant. And Eddie's need for an answer to the question why is the driving force for the story. She is on a missing to uncover the reason behind her father's suicide. She's struggling with why this man who loved her so and was supposed to always be there to cheer her on and protect her, suddenly decided he couldn't do it anymore. No note, no indication that anything was wrong and he's gone... just like that. This pushes Eddie into a sort of frenzy of need. She sneaks out at night to go to the spot where he died, sitting and staring, while trying to make sense of it all.
Her relationship with her best friend Milo is strained. He knows more about that night and won't tell her, because he is trying to protect her. It just makes her push him away and encourages her sense of loneliness and her need for finding the answer at all costs.
Culler appears at the spot one night and Eddie drums up a sort of kinship of grief with him. They are both looking for answers in their own way - Eddie, for why her Dad just left her and Culler, for why his teacher would end it all in this way. Culler uses his photography skills to help him make sense of it all, which in turn helps Eddie to start seeing things in a more artistic away. She never really understood her fathers artistic side, but is slowly seeing how beautiful it could be.
Courtney Summers gets me every time with her twists. I did not see this one coming, or at least I would never have guessed at what it was or why. Love it!
I'm not sure that Eddie truly finds the closure she was hoping for, but she did learn a few things and finds a few things she lost along the way. The ending wasn't what I expected, but I'm still thinking about it now, so that must mean something right?
“I hate that I'm so numb and empty and disconnected from most of these people but even I can see worth in stupid little moments like these. These people aren't even my family, but I can see their value and if I can see it in something this small, when I feel this bad, then---
Then why didn't he?”
Other Books To Read By This Author:
-This Is Not A Test (READ)
-Please Remain Calm (READ)
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